"You cannot shake hands with a clenched fist"

Mmmm chase coy. His guitar makes me happy :) << see thats my face right there, smiling away! Really been into acoustic stuff recently - dunno why, its just a lot easier to listen to and the lyrics usually make a bit more sense when there not being screamed at me like the other songs i listen to haha.

But yeahh, do you not think town is a bit suckish recently? It's like i get ready and walk to porsh's, looking forward to it, and then as soon as i go, its like : can i go home now? I know thats harsh, its nothing to do with who i go with or out, its just a bit crap when your walking around doing nothing and spending money on useless stuff when you know it could be used for other stuff more important.

This week anyway is my revision week. Only a bit a day but im not going out at all. That way my mum will let me go out on saturday to see Ben :D I really wanna see him but im also kinda scared aswell. We've been mates for 2 years and obviously theres been a lot of things inbetween that time that havnt been good but i suppose thats just friends for you. I'm worried that im just gonna turn into a shy mess tbhz. I'm scared of what happened with me and Jake and that its gonna happen with me and Ben. Obviously the circumstances are a bit different but still. He's travelling up here just to see me and i dont want it to be awekward for him. Not like he can just hop on a bus and go home is it? Hmm. I think i should stop overthinking it all cause i'll just jinx it all knowing me haha.

Porsh made me laugh today - rang me up saying she's going to town and is gonna beat him up for me and say YOU KNOW WHY! lmaooo sorry dont even try and understand that inside joke. But yeah she is a babe sometimes porsh. She knows how sad i am and she still loves me. She may drive me nuts on rare occaision but shes one of the coolest people I know tbhz. If i left she would be one of the rare few that i would reallyyyyyyy miss and cry my eyes out for.

Anyways, just thought I'd update cause i havnt for a bit.
Oh and by the way, if your wondering what the hell my title is about - its a quote from Ghandi. I know it has no reference to my blog but i really like it because it shows how there can't be peace if there is violence. Ghandi should be my grandad tbhz.

peace :)